For a number of years (8+ to be exact), the majority of my
days were spent creating and analyzing an endless number of spreadsheets. Numbers were my priority and I was constantly
thinking about them and creating ways to communicate what they meant to my
business partners. The reality of all
those numbers was that I craved some “words” to communicate with and to give my
brain a timeout from the spreadsheets.
All of that (along with plenty of noise in my head on a number of
topics) resulted in creation of this blog.
This blog has been therapeutic for me in a number of ways
over the years. In the early days of
creation it not only provided a way to focus on something other than my work,
it also was the outlet for a lot of confusion, uncertainty, and loneliness
characterizing my personal life. I knew
that if I could write what was happening in my head, that at least some of the
confusion would turn into clarity through the process. It was also a way to connect with other
people… especially other working women with children and relationship
challenges. It has been helpful to hear
from others with similar challenges and to validate some of my experiences as
“normal”.
For a long time I was pretty regular and efficient about
turning my thoughts into blog posts. And
then… Just over a year ago I took on a new position at work and suddenly the
spreadsheets turned into a project that required writing… a LOT of
writing. I spent over nine months
turning thoughts and ideas into strategies and tactics. Suddenly, this blog that was such a vital
outlet for so long seemed like just another project on my list. I felt like I had run out of words and was
basically using up all that I had at the Office.
So, it has been some time since I was tuned in to my
thoughts and full of the right kind of energy to make this blog a
priority. Part of forcing myself to
write this today is the desire to get back to making this blog a part of
me. I really do still have words… plenty
of them, I think. And while during this
same time my personal life has changed, it does not mean that the challenges
are gone, but rather that I have a new set to think about. Here’s the first of many posts to come…
