How does that saying go? "Whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger"? I have been chanting that like a mantra this last couple of weeks. It is officially that time of year...the biggest project of the year for Finance has started, with deadlines galore and more work than my team can manage to do in a typical 40-hour work week. I have been dragging home my laptop most nights and working at least a couple of hours after Little O goes to bed at 8pm...when I don't work after 8pm, I am basically falling immediately to sleep because I am beyond exhausted.
In a strange twist of irony, Little O's dad has been laid off one day per week because business is slow. Talk about two different schedules... he was off Monday, golfed all day Wednesday, and then managed to work the other three days ALL day...whew! He also managed to work out at the gym almost every day this week, go for a run every morning, and had time to wash his car, watch the Cubs, etc., etc., etc. Need I say more?
So, as I have so many times before, I am trying to keep my perspective here... The project will not go on forever (although technically it won't be complete until Thanksgiving), it isn't like it is any big surprise...we do the same thing every year, it isn't Little O's dad who ASKED to be laid off... You get the idea. So how come I feel so annoyed? I don't mind hard work, I actually like the way the days fly by. But the pressure right now feels overwhelming...I have a ton of deadlines to meet at work, I am the one who has the paycheck and needs to make sure our bills get paid even with less coming in, and I still need to do all the life maintenance things that go with a home, child and husband. Can one person really manage all of this? And why do I feel so alone...like I am the only one who is responsible for all of this? Now you know why I am chanting "what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger".
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