While Bermuda is gearing up to withstand the brunt of impact from hurricane Igor, here closer to home a good friend is in the midst of making some major life changes. I talk to her on the phone and hear the certainty in her voice about what she is doing, but I also hear the anxiety that comes along with making a decision that, in the short run, is difficult for those around her. She is asking questions that I know I have asked myself... Am I doing the right things for my kids, right now? Am I making good decisions so that I have the financial security I need to take care of myself and my family? Will my kids understand all of this someday? Will anything ever feel "normal" again?
Today, looking at O (and knowing what my friend is going through) I could not help but be thankful for this day...thankful that we have moved past all of the uncertainty, found the right path, moved on. I felt relief for myself...relief that so many things have been put behind us. Each day is not ideal, however I feel a strength that I did not feel for many years, and each day feels like it belongs to me...there are not the same uncertainties that used to lurk around every corner.
I also feel so much sadness for my friend... I wish I could somehow show her the future that is there for her... I wish she could really see that one year from now, two years from now, TEN years from now...her life will be different and she won't feel the same way that she feels today. I can't promise her that her life will be better, but I know that it will be different, and I know that she will feel even more confident about taking control of her life. It think it is true that in the eye of the storm we find our strength and our true path...we just have to be brave enough to face our fears and move forward.
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