Chemistry...

I sucked at high school Chemistry... The most entertaining thing about the class was the eccentric man that taught us...and occasionally blew something up.  I just could not visualize how all of those numbers and letters could be "something"... If I couldn't touch or see it, I could not seem to imagine it either.

In relationships, chemistry has often fooled me, too... That thing, that unexpected thing, that pulls people together (or doesn't).  So impossible to really explain, and even harder still to believe in.  I have found that those who seem so appealing become less and less so as they disappoint you and become someone you do not recognize.  I have also been in situations where someone unexpectedly became so much more to me over time, after I came to really know them...what seemed ordinary became special.

So, does chemistry mean anything?  Is it just one of those things that can sometimes bring people together, but in the scheme of things really means nothing?  A true connection is so much more meaningful than chemistry, but can you have a real connection without it?  If there is no instant chemistry with someone, can it happen over time?  Are you just forcing something to exist that really doesn't?  Or maybe talking yourself into it?  Even if you have instant chemistry with someone...can you trust it?

To a certain extent it is the "thing" that fairy tales are based on... the prince and princess meet, fall instantly in love, and live happily ever after.  Really?  Does that sound realistic or practical?  Can you ever fall in love that way?  It just sounds so ridiculous and impossible...and yet, we all want to believe that the possibility exists.  Maybe it is easier to believe in the possibility than to accept the alternative... The fact is that maybe we don't all get to have the fairy tale...maybe few people really and truly share that kind of instant connection that leads to forever.  Despite the reality, most of us choose to hope for romance and happy endings.  We continue to chase after that elusive connection...  I think it is because we figure that someone has to find the happy ending...