Just words...

Tonight, when I called O to see how her day went and tell her good night, she answered the phone by saying "I talk you 'morrow Mom, I not want to talk to you". Okay, so right now you are cringing because you can guess how I took this, but also saying that every Mom has a story about a day their child said something "mean" to them, right?! Every toddler tells their parents that they don't like them for one reason or another...

I know in my heart that she was most likely distracted with some other activity (huh, wouldn't getting ready for bed be a good idea?!?) and just literally in her three-year old mind, did not have time for me. So, why have I spent the last two hours trying to convince myself of this? Why do I start projecting a future in which she wants to be with him because of course he is more fun, rather than spending time with her Mom? Is this really about her, or about me and my fears as a Mother?

So I start to think about how my whole world is focused on O, and maybe that isn't the healthiest for myself or for her? Is this about her trying to establish some independence when she is away from me? Is she trying to figure out for herself how she manages her new routine? Is she trying to figure out how to accept a situation that she hasn't been given a choice in? Or... is she punishing me for making her go through this transition and forcing her to accept changes she doesn't want to accept? Or am I totally over the edge with the analysis and she is just being a sassy three-year old??? No one ever said motherhood would be easy...