Once in a blue moon...

I believe that things happen for a reason... that the experiences that we all go through are part of what makes each of us unique, and what helps to shape the way we look at the world around us.  I also believe that the universe sends us signals sometimes... pushing us forward or pulling us away from certain things.

It has been a long time since I let anybody get close to me... I took a break from the online dating world because I was tired of disappointing first dates and feeling like I was pretending to want something that I really wasn't ready for.  Over the course of this last summer, though, I felt like I was missing something... As much as I love my daughter and our life, and the women who are my closest friends and support, as well as the jobs that challenge me, I felt like something was just missing...

So, I decided to wade into the waters once more... Back to online dating and the endless search for something real.  Imagine how surprised I was to find someone, just days back into the fray, that looked like a good match.  Handsome and smart, dedicated to family, fun and interesting...  He suggested lunch... which turned into two hours of non-stop talk...  Then there was a rainy day date, where the rain didn't even matter.  And then... The lakefront, and dinner, and hanging out at the beach... on a night with a blue moon.

I am asking myself... how did this happen?  Is this real?  Is it finally my time?  How is it possible that this man exists and that the two of us so clearly click with each other?  My instincts say be wary... don't miss something important.  My heart wants to take a chance... I feel like I have finally met someone that is worth taking a chance on.  So, my guard is down... and I am all in.  He is an amazing person, and I believe he is worth taking a chance on.  For the first time in a long time, I feel like not throwing myself into this relationship would be taking the chance at losing what could be the best person that has ever happened to me...  Maybe the universe is speaking to me... and telling me that my time is now.